i don't think i've ever gone this long in between updates.

i'm feeling pretty tumultuous. my therapy is ending and i'm feeling anxious about that. my mother in law is staying with us for three weeks and i'm ready to pull my hair out. i'm six months sober and i don't know if i want to be sober anymore. i don't know what the hell is going on in my marriage except that i'm not happy, but i don't know whose fault that is.

aren't you glad (the maybe one person that reads this) that i've spared you thus far from all this nonsense?

starving + bleeding