i'm not that big a believer in god, but i swear, someone or something somewhere is fucking with me.

first my computer died.

now my car is dying. it's the clutch. it's going to cost $1000 to fix. i don't have $1000. i don't have $50. i've spent $2000 in the past year alone fixing this car - and it's 11 years old!! i'm NOT sinking another penny into it!

but i can't afford to buy another one. where in the world am i going to get money for a car payment?

fuck fuck fuckitty fuck.

argh.

i asked the members of my group if they thought i was a good addition to it. they all said yes. the MD says i alternate between complete silence, extreme courageousness, and edgy sardonic humor.

i think that should be my epitaph.

starving + bleeding