last session, my therapist gave me "homework" - basically he wants to know why i come and what i want from it. all the things i can think of are totally lame...

-help understanding why i feel the way that i do, why do have these terrible impulses that i have, and can they be stopped?

-help understanding how the hell i got to this point and where do i go from here - not just dealing with the past, but day to day thoughts and feelings

-help dissipating the all-pervasive self loathing i've had my entire life

- help building an integrated person, instead of all these parts that are all over the place

that's what i thought of but i don't know if i'll have the courage to say them - i just feel like they're lame and repetitive...i mean, basically i want help. isn't that enough?? also, i fear that if i tell him those things he will think it's too much or something....or that i'm asking too much of him...

arghg. i never liked homework.

starving + bleeding