cold & knives
2007-02-09 1:26 p.m.
man this is not the place to be if you detest the cold (like i do).
apparently central new york has been on the national newa and the weather channel because of all the FUCKING SNOW we're getting on a daily basis, as well as temps in the -15 range after wind chill....i never want to leave my bed in general but now it is close to impossible.
i was home alone for most of the day yesterday, until my therapy session. i could NOT stop thinking about the knife carousel we keep in the kitchen. i would go stare at it....force myself to walk away...come back and stare again, maybe pick up a knife and slam it back into place. finally i couldn't take it anymore and i left 3 hours early for therapy - drove around and then waited for an eternity in the waiting room. i knew that if stayed i would have used them.
knives scare me. i usually use razor blades and small things like that - but when i use knives i'm talking serious damage.
it's sad that i had to physically remove myself from them. i wish i had had the strength to stay...
whatever.
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