well tomorrow will be a week out of the hospital...if i can make it another two weeks it will be a record since i first went in...

i don't know if it's my meds or what, but since i left the hospital i have had no moods at all...just this disturbing empty feeling, nothing makes me laugh or cry or angry. just...blah. my last two days inpatient i was laughing up a storm and being a clown, being my somewhat sassy self...and i swear as the cold air hit my face it was all gone...

very mystifying...

starving + bleeding