ooohhhh the apathy. oh the apathy. anyone sick of hearing me moan about the apathy feel free to change the channel...

nothing appeals to me in any way. there's nothing i want to do. nothing i want to eat. nothing i want to drink. nothing i want to watch. no one i want to see. it's all veryyyy....boring. dull. i have no energy. can't be bothered.

eh.

i've lost five pounds in two days.

they did psychological testing on me on friday. i was mostly honest, surprising myself. i admitted to the starving and the cutting. i did not admit to the occasional vomiting episode. it was a test on a computer. i suppose it's easier to be honest when i'm just double-clicking "true" and "false" instead of talking to a real person. i wonder what the repercussions of my honesty will be?

no energy. somehow i have to get home.

starving + bleeding