i'm in such a good mood - i'm flying!!! that's the one benefit of being bipolar is that the highs are so fucking high...
i woke up this morning - blue sky, birds chirping. haven't drank in four days, haven't smoked in a week and a half - and my eating is going so well!!! i've lost two pounds since monday which makes me so happy...

i lay in bed for over an hour this morning, feeling my hipbones and picturing myself at the most possible thin i could be and i felt so empowered - it is attainable, i can get thinner and thinner and thinner - i can go forever like this...i can i can i can i can i can.....

starving + bleeding