hmph.

lost eight pounds last week. only threw up twice. i guess that means i had a good week.

i am so burned out. i'm supposed to be trying to impress the powers that be at this firm. i'm only taken on one assignment, and now it's late. not impressive. not at all. i just sit at my desk and stare off into nothing...wasting time, but billing clients for it. i feel a kind of exhaustion that rattles to the very core of my being, a tiredness that i feel radiating from within. the alarm goes off and i can not face the day. but i always do. i have responsibilities, i have commitments. people are depending on me. i am depending on myself. right?

when will i be thin?

i am already fighting the urge to cut. i'm sure by tonight my willpower will be eroded down to nothing...

starving + bleeding