i want to start over.

i want to be a child and play with my Jem dolls.

i want to play sports instead of doing theater.

i want to tell my mother to shut the fuck up the first time she abused me.

i want to go to college for psychology.

i want to go to europe and stay there, i don't care who i would have to marry.

i want to have never fallen into the mirror.

i want to have never touched blade to skin.

i want to trust those i love.

i want to spend wisely.

i want to not have fucked. up. everything.

i want to start over.

starving + bleeding