god i wish i had more positive things to say here. i feel like i'm a huge draaaaag.

let's see. what's good?

at work they ordered pizza yesterday. i went home for lunch instead. that's huge! because every other time they've ordered pizza i've eated a TON (embarrasingly, in front of everyone, i'm talking 6-7 pieces) and then purged. so i was able to avoid that, which was pretty awesome.

i made my video for my fitness certification. i only made one noticeable mistake, so hopefully i'll pass. i should find out in a couple weeks or so. i got to teach tonight, which is awesome. we also got the new music for summer, which is great because i am damn sick of the music i trained on and have been doing.

i told my dad that i decided to try couples counseling with t. he was very supportive. he's supportive of everything and anything i do. he's fantastic - i'm so lucky to have him. we're going hiking on saturday for father's day.

i did cut tonight, but it wasn't too bad. i was able to stop after 7-8 cuts, and i did the proper first aid for them. (i know, i'm really stretching to find positive things, give me a break)

i stayed under 900 cals today, which is good for a workout day.

happy wednesday!

starving + bleeding