for those of you who have had successes, have been able to go some time without cutting, without purging, without abusing yourself in some other god awful way - please tell me. please please tell me.

how in the world do you gain control?? i don't have any. every time i try it slips through my fingers in a day or so. i want it, then i watch it leave.

i want control so bad. why is it so elusive??

starving + bleeding