i started crying so hard tonight because i just felt so goddamn fat. t's like "what? what? what is it?" and i finally confess that god i just feel so fucking enormous and i can't stand to live in this body for another second...

and he said "you're not fat. you wanna see fat? i'll take ya to [insert name of a nearby po-dunk two horse town] and we'll go to McDonalds and THEN you will see fat!!"

i know he's trying, but that was not comforting in the least.

starving + bleeding