last weekend i hooked up with my roommate's friend sara. the sex was pretty good, but now she's got my number and is calling me and texting me. this is the last fucking thing i need.

i cried all through session today. i kept whispering like a crazy person "i want to cut please just let me cut" not really to him, to no one in particular. he's never seen me like that before...where i feel like my heart is dying and i'm in so much pain i can't fucking stand it.

i think i scared him a little. welcome to my world, fucker.

starving + bleeding