well the good news is...

i am finally employed!! after 6 months of hospitalizations and unemployment, i am now gainfully employed, at last!! perhaps now i can start chipping away at those way past due bills.

the bad news...
first of all, no more dbt. the group meets from 3-5 and now i'm a 9 to 5-er. there's no way i can waltz up to my brand new boss and say "hey, i'm going to be cutting out of here at 2:30 every wednesday, ok?" if anything, my hours are going to be more like 9-7 (gotta love the law).

second of all, i have the same problem with my therapy. the clinic closes at 5, period. when am i going to be able to see him at all? much less twice a week, like we've been doing. he keeps saying we'll work things out, but, defeatist that i am, i don't see how. my thursday appointment has already been cancelled, probably monday's will be too.

i can't stand this, i need to know what's going to happen, like NOW!! if this is the end of my therapy then i'd rather know now so i can get over it.

starving + bleeding