can someone tell my how to turn off the goddamn waterworks??

so this time, i was at dbt, and we started the "emotional regulation" unit and we got this handout about the goals of the unit, like understanding your emotions, recognizing them, being less vulnerable towards the negative ones, etc etc etc. everyone's talking about the goals and i just bust out with the fucking tears! i felt TERRIFIED - like i can't do this unit, i can't have emotions!! they are the things that go bump in the dark and make me certifiably crazy!

i was so fucking embarrased i couldn't stand myself, then came the sympathetic looks, the quiet pass of the kleenex box...the group leader left a voicemail on my phone after group, saying she wanted to be sure i was ok...

that sort of kindness makes me want to cry, and then run and hide.

blecchh. i suck.

starving + bleeding