out of the hospital...

life, take 4.

i'm already stressed...i have to tell my boss that i quit - he's supposed to call so at any noise i jump out of my skin thinking it's my phone ringing...

what am i afraid of will happen? (sorry for the awkward sentence) That he'll come to the door and kick my ass?? hmmm...i just have to repeat to myself what my doctor said "i have to do what's best for me" over and over...

nevermind that doing what's best for me makes me feel damn shitty...

i go back to my DBT group tomorrow...personally so far i think it's a bunch of crap but i promised my therapist that i'd give it a fair shot...

starving + bleeding