well i submitted a technical request to diaryland ten days ago and here i am still with no answers. i feel loved.

yeah i know i have the free version but i have over 300 entries - have a lil respect people.

whatever. it's no big deal.

a rare night alone. t has gone to help his dad out, a last minute thing. i can't even tell you the last time i was alone at home. or alone, period. if i don't go home after work it's to meet someone - and if i go home, t is here. i almost don't know what to do with myself. but a chance to update is good - since t is a little nosy and likes to peek over my shoulder when i'm at the computer.

there are so many good things about our relationship - yet - i feel like my life is not my own. is that how it's supposed to be? i mean, yes i'm one of a couple, a pair, a set of two. it's "our" life. our house. "we" go places, we do things.

i'm not sure if i will ever be ready to be part of a we.

starving + bleeding