well i thought about unlocking but i was looking at my referrers and i had a gozillion hits from something called sexyfunny blogspot - now i have no idea what that is - how could they hit my site without the password? unless they are just fucking with my counter or something?? i don't get it. i am not technologically inclined, in case you didn't know...i checked it out and it's some nasty ass porn shit - but looking at the comments it looks like there might be others having similar issues....huh. don't get it.

i started a weight loss competition with a friend today, even though she says "you don't really need it" BAH! after mardi gras i am a fucking heifer and at least ten pounds need to hit the road jack. anyway, i am almost giddy...fuck that i AM giddy! i love weight loss competitions it brings out the worst in me...and the best...i know i can kick her ass and i will do whatever it fucking takes!! plus it'll be nice to have someone, flesh and blood to talk about calories and stuff with, although i'll have to keep in mind she's not as crazy as i am, she wants to do this "healthy" so i'll have to keep it cool, but still it will be nice. it'll be super sweet when i win - i know i will cause she always messes up - she's been on a "diet" for eons now (god i sound so bad talking about my friend this way) and i am hardcore so YEAH BABY. loser buys winner a new pair of jeans. awesome.

whenever i'm alone with you

you make me feel like i'm free again...

starving + bleeding