i'm about to prune my buddy list again. if you haven't updated in over 3 months but are still kicking around let me know.

semester starts tomorrow. the last semester EVER. of course i feel nostalgic. this is the last pre-first-class assignment i'll do. this is the last time i select a carrel for the semester.

and of course i want to get the fuck out of here. NOW. especially since i've gotten yet more shitty grades to tell me i am stupid as fuck. but i don't have a job yet. and THAT is fucking scary. so in a way i don't want to graduate. not yet. not until i have something to graduate to, a way to start paying off this horrid debt.

i'm down five pounds since i left the parents. that is definitely the upshot of being back at school. i can start to shrink again.

although i hate where i am now i find comfort in knowing it won't be for long...

starving + bleeding