it has begun....

it's 10pm and i'm still at the library...

i just don't think i have the energy for this. not this time around. although i always say that. it just feels so freakin overwhelming to start. it's the starting that the hardest. and the drive to keep going. that part's hard too. the caffeine intake's been upped, the sleep's been decreased...it's all good. i just need to last a month like this. that's all.

i've lost three more pounds. i just can't be bothered to change the counter.

ok back to the paper i'm writing. well, researching. it's due in a week and i'm just researching it now. i'm such a tard.

oh, and for those following along i updated summergrrl

starving + bleeding