argh.
hate hate hate my boss. i am doing the work of three people, yet when i ask for a raise (am currently grossly underpaid) he laughs and says he doesn't think i deserve one. fucker.
my dad is still in the hospital. his recovery is going to take forever. one day at a time, right? but he isn't himself yet and i can't stand it. he doesn't know who anyone is, even himself. i lean over him and he asks "who are you?" and it just breaks my heart to pieces. i'm your daughter, dad, i'm your favorite person in the world, we would do anything for each other...don't you remember??

no.

it will come back. i hope.

i want to disappear. like i have in his mind, i want to evaporate from existence.

starving + bleeding