guess what!!

i'm still a fucking fat ass. big freakin surprise.

my bmi, officially, is at its lowest - a 16.5. unofficially - i've never felt nastier. it's all under there, i can feel it, like mites crawling underneath my skin about to splurge out like some alien.

is it totally freaky that i want to be a goddamn single digit bmi? the way i used to want to be a double digit weight?

not only is it freaky, it's suicidal. but who gives a fuck?

i stopped giving a fuck ages ago.

starving + bleeding