i cleared the air a bit with my therapist...i told her she needed to stop thanking me for sharing, she needed to stop trying to convince me that i was being courageous, yadda yadda yadda - just talk to me normal, if you think i'm bullshitting call me on it, if you like what i'm saying nod your fucking head and move on.

she seemed a little taken aback but hopefully not offended. these kids today, i tell ya.

i wrote an 11 page letter to my former therapist back at school awhile ago - she's the one i really connected with - just to let her know how things were going here. i wrote that i didn't expect her to write back (what could she say, really?) but for some reason when i go get the mail i sort of hope i have a letter from her. i guess i just don't want to let go of that connection - especially since i don't have that here, with the Kid.

*sigh* oh well.

ran 3 miles today - haven't been able to do that since i stopped training two years ago - should feel nice and painful tomorrow morning...

starving + bleeding