i am evil
2004-12-21 11:02 a.m.
my grandmother died last night.
i feel like shit. not in the way you're supposed to when someone dies but because:
1. i didn't like her
2. she was a pain
3. she was just diagnosed with Alzheimers and if things got much worse she would have come to live with my parents, which would not have been a healthy situation for anyone.
4. it was always a hassle to go visit her
5. she was always a point of contention between my parents
6. she was so frail she scared me
i think i wanted her to die, deep down. i think i'm glad she's dead, deep down. when i found out she had died i shed a tear, not for her, but for the pain my father is feeling.
i am such a terrible person. i have a black heart. am seriously going straight to hell.
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