ok i apologize in advance for the randomness and all the typos that will predominate this entry - i am so fucking jittery my hands are shaking all over the place - seriously i look like a junkie or something - my hair is all ratted out, my pupils are all dilated and my hands are just shaking all over the place - i look like the poster child for too much crack.

this is what happens when you live on a pure coffee/diet soda diet for four days.

two finals down - three to go. they aren't til next week but since they are three days in a row i need to be ready for all of them by the first one. so the impossible schedule continues. but i guess the good thing is that i'm so cracked out with caffiene and no sleep that i don't even want to eat. i can't remember the last time i ate solid food. that's what it was like when i was doing a lot of coke. just a diet of coke and the occasional diet soda. no food. man its good i don't have any connections anymore cause i don't know what i would do...

why do people keep walking behind me???!? i purposely sit in the corner so no one has a reason to go near me but for whatever reason they keep coming around. i'm so paranoid about people looking over my shoulder - like why would they care what i have to say, right?? but i still worry - this is getting fucking annoying.

god i'm feeling really anxious. i feel like i need to do something...binge, drink, dance, something - i'm so fucking tense. prob all the caffeine. i can't do anything tho. can't do anything but stare at a fucking book all day and all night. fuck.

starving + bleeding