it seems like more often than not these days i'm using this a more of a place to seek advice than anything else, and if it's a burden i do apologize...the fact is i really have nowhere else to turn...

if you are a shit eating people pleasing dog, how do you change? i used to think i was a little kickass and that i didn't care what people thought. turns out i was just bullshitting myself. i break my back to please people and it's never enough. i don't even KNOW how i feel or what i want anymore. it's all about how i can make someone else happy or not be angry with me. Half the time it doesn't work anyway so i get shit on.

how do you learn what it is you feel and want after so long of not even trying?

how do you not feel nauseated with guilt at the fear that saying what you feel or want is going to upset someone you love? is it something that comes with time and practice?

how do you give up the addictive need to please and to lose the fear of abandonment?

any thoughts??

starving + bleeding